Jason in the vast spoils of America


Listen to Black Sabbath
June 8, 2009, 6:34 am
Filed under: Thoughts For Myself | Tags: ,

He was a kid like most others, all the adults told him he shouldn’t listen to his music so loud, but it was no use, he couldn’t hear them anyways. One day he was sitting in the park, taking in his surroundings, it was a beautiful day. An old man who must have been around 75 was sitting on the bench adjacent to him was feeding a group of birds. This old man was the kind of person who told boys not to listen to their music so loud because it would damage their hearing. He never listened to Black Sabbath.

On the road behind them cars zoomed by, a vehicle parked on the street forcing them all to merge into the left lane. A driver was cut off so he laid on his horn in a brief fit of rage. “Shut up” yelled the one old man. He went on feeding the birds.

Minutes later an ambulance sped down the street, taking a dying man to the hospital. Again the man yelled “shut up”. He went on feeding the birds.

Soon he ran out of bread crumbs, the birds became restless, some lost interest and flew away, some stayed. One, a seagull mixed amongst a bunch of pidgeons and doves, began squawking at the man. All the man could say was “shut up.”

Tired of this man’s detestation to any sort of noise, the boy got up and left the park, besides, he had somewhere to be. The old man remained, when you get to be that age you don’t really ever have anywhere to go.

Finally it came time for him to leave, the sun was going down and the city was becoming an unsettling place for a 75 year old. He passed a baseball diamond at the north edge of the park, the game ended with a home run, the scoreboard read 7-4. The crowd in the bleachers cheered, hollered and whistled. The man simply muttered “shut up”.

The path home took him down a road where a club was situated amongst several storefronts who had just closed or were vacant. Inside the club the boy’s band was setting up.

The boy checked his final levels and played a riff from Lord Of This World. He let the last note ring out, the sustain was the sweetest sound to him, how it turned into feedback that was unbearable to most. He loved it because it was his, he was the one making this, just himself, the guitar and the amplifier. He loved it because everyone else hated it.

The old man passed the club, completely disgusted by the sustaining noise coming from the boy’s amplifier and yelled “shut up” but it was no use, the boy couldn’t hear him anyways. The old man should have listened to Black Sabbath, maybe everything would be a little more tolerable.

This was my first attempt at writing a short story in a long time.
It probably sucks, whatever.



Dreamed I was a fireman
June 7, 2009, 10:52 am
Filed under: Food, Thoughts For Myself

Actually last night I dreamed a friend and I shoplifted from a department store. All we stole was socks and underwear. We ran to my car, for some reason he tried to pull some Dukes of Hazzard shit and slide over the hook. It was raining, he wiped out.

Still looking for motivation. Eating Glass is playing with Pulling Teeth on July 17th in Montreal, that’s about all i’ve got for getting my zine done. Was this even worth a post? We played our first show since PA/NJ on Friday. It went as well as it could I guess. I always hate playing in Toronto for some reason, I still don’t know exactly why.

After the show Jade and I made pizza, by the time it was finished it was 3am and Jade was asleep. Look for this shit in the aforementioned zine, it will be part one of the hopefully ongoing segment dubbed as “Old Man Colohan’s Recipes For Success.” Shit was real good, sun-dried tomato and artichoke hearts on focaccia, mmm.

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Here’s how I spent the better part of my day yesterday. I got a burrito and found a nice park in Toronto and read a good portion of Hot Water Music. Good book, I ended up falling asleep in the park with my book in hand. I now have a stupid tan.

After that I met up with Jade and Billy for food at Sadie’s then went to Rotate with Billy. Skateboarded to Dundas Square because there was something going on attempting to beat a Guinness World Record (most people playing the same song on guitar at the same time?) I went because the number one voted song was Helpless by Neil Young. I had to sit through two awful originals by the band playing and then the other top 9 songs from the list (Canadians fucking suck, you seriously voted Feist and that girl with the song about a basement apartment on a list of the best Canadian guitar songs?)

Furthermore, what a terrible Neil Young song to pick. It’s a great song but I mean lyrically it’s a pretty sad song, definitely not one I’d want to try and break a record with. Musically it’s a piano/slide guitar heavy piece, with the acoustic guitar just barely audible most of the time. They dragged that shit out for like 6 minutes and the asshole playing electric guitar threw in a solo. No one was even singing the chorus properly.

Anyways, thankfully the band was loud enough to drown out the 1600 retards trying to break the record, even though they butchered the song themselves. There were 1600ish people there and the record was in the 1800s. So awesome when the dude from Guinness got onstage and said unfortunately the record wasn’t beat, everyone was so bummed. Good, glad my time wasn’t completely wasted, I always take joy in seeing shitty people bum out.

Toronto is a shit hole, Kitchener is a shit hole, if I could feasibly live in Chicago I would in a second, I don’t know if I could stand being away from my best friends, it’s a scary thought. Same thing goes for cellphones, I’d love to get rid of mine completely but people my age have become so dependent on them (myself included) that I feel I would lose contact with a lot of friends because of it.

I find myself guilty of this from time to time, putting more attention towards someone on the phone before someone I’m in the room with. I know the feeling, it’s just awkward and makes you think…wow this person must really care about what’s going on right here, right now, huh?

If I’m guilty of this around you, knock my phone out of my hand, I feel like a piece of shit when I do this.

Tell me why are you like this
Are you the same with anyone?
Save me from my sickness and tell me
Why do you treat me like this?



Update for the sake of an update
February 12, 2009, 10:31 am
Filed under: Food, Music, Thoughts For Myself | Tags: , ,

It’s 5:30am, I’m at work and I haven’t eaten for about 8 hours. I’m starving, thinking about all the good food I’m going to make on the long weekend (Family Day, fuck yeah!) Several months ago I mentioned the idea of making a vegan baconator since I’ve never had the real thing and never will. I’ve decided to finally go through with it, Saturday. It’s actually going to happen. I’ll post pictures after it’s done. I’m thinking sweet potato X yukon gold fries to go along with it and maybe a mint chocolate chip frosty. We’ll see how I’m feeling on Saturday, but the veganator itself will happen.

Here’s the first proper picture of me and my main squeeze, from the show on Saturday by Pat. You can really tell I’ve been working out. Actually I’ve just been doing rails.rivck



Stand By Me
January 7, 2009, 12:18 pm
Filed under: Movies, Thoughts For Myself
On New Years Eve I watched Stand By Me with Bianca. Admittedly, for a movie that I’d called one of my favourites, I hadn’t seen it in it’s entirety in at least ten years.

Maybe I just said that it was a favourite because I felt like a cool dude for loving a movie with a lot of swear words and a dead body when I was 3 or 4 (the earliest time I remember seeing it was at my friend Ethan’s house, I can’t remember how old I was exactly.)

Nine years ago I I was on my eighth grade year end trip to Quebec City and someone brought it to watch on the bus. I realized what movie it was and wondered who brought it and thought it would last more than 5 minutes on a bus with tight assed teachers, mennonites and sheltered small town children. Of course it didn’t last long at all.

After watching it again as an adult I can confirm it’s place as a favourite but for different reasons. It’s such an absolutely heavy film, a great coming of age piece that I think everyone can relate to in some sense. After watching the last scene where Gordie finishes typing the line -  – God damn, if I was alone watching that (which I refused to do, perhaps the reason why it’d been so long since I’d seen it last) I probably would have bawled my eyes out.

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I never had any friends later on like the ones I had when I was twelve. Jesus, does anyone?

It’s unfortunate that Rockin’ Robin, the song in the opening scene of the movie isn’t on the Stand By Me OST, it’s the best song in the movie with exception to the title track. There are a lot of songs on the album that could have been left out and given their place to Rockin’ Robin. It would be better if the OST was just Rockin’ Robin and Stand By Me. The only memory I have of our move from California to Ontario when I was 5 was myself riding in the U-Haul truck with my dad and Rockin’ Robin playing on the radio. I don’t know if it was a tape or a radio station, if I only heard the song once or several times but it’s all I can remember from that entire trip. Funny how minor things like that stick in your mind for so long. The song has always held a special place in my heart.

Different Seasons, which is the book that contains the Body, the novella which Stand By Me is based on is on my list of books to read this year. Number one presently is Master of Reality by John Darnielle, which I still haven’t tracked down, might have to order it online or remove a copy from Chapters.